I’ve been thinking about the future a lot lately.
I have so many plans for it, both in my professional career and in my personal life. I’ve come to the conclusion that you can plan as much as you want and have a crystal clear idea in your head of what it’s going to look like, but all of that planning can go to shit in the blink of an eye.
This is not to discourage planning, I still have goals and aspirations for the future, it’s just to emphasize on the fact that planning is just that, plans. The definition of plans according to the trusty google is, “an intention or decision about what one is going to do.” An intention is not set in stone, neither is a decision. You can go to Target with the intention of only getting a few things and leaving with a full shopping cart. You can decide that you’re going to start eating healthy and then continue to eat junk food.
You can plan your whole life down to the day, but it won’t matter because life will come along and change everything, then you’re back at square one. Even making plans with friends can fall through as disappointing as that is. I’m at the point in my life where I don’t want to plan anymore, I just want to live. Living moment to moment seems a lot better to me than agonizing over what I’m going to do to fill the time in my day.
I’ll still make plans with friends and have intentions and make decisions, but these things will no longer determine my outlook on life. Sure it’s okay to be upset and disappointed if plans fall through, especially if you were looking forward to them, but everything happens for a reason. I’ve been trying to take myself less seriously and become more spontaneous.
I recently met someone new, which was not in the plans for the end of this semester. But, as it turns out, I really enjoy being around this person. I was worried about timing and distance and leaving school, but there’s no such thing as good timing. Things will happen when they happen and no one can plan for that. If it’s meant to be it will be, and if it’s not it won’t. There’s no use worrying about the future that is so completely uncertain.
Thus ends my rant for the day,
All the Best